Mistakes were made: Part 1

February: Retrospective I hate February. Every year for the last 3 years it has filled me with dread. The memories of it are traumatic and something I can’t get past. This is my attempt to. To get some stuff off my chest because it’s something I don’t think I’ve ever come to terms with and … Continue reading Mistakes were made: Part 1 →

It wasn’t The Grinch that stole Christmas

It’s that time of year where I often joke about being a Grinch and hating Christmas. There’s actually three sides to my dislike of Christmas so I’ll start with the bit that most of you haven’t heard before. One year when Isla was really poorly before Christmas I did promise that if Isla made it … Continue reading It wasn’t The Grinch that stole Christmas →

No more psychologist = more blogging!

On Monday, after a year, I finished my psychology sessions. It was bittersweet because I did find them really useful and I found her really easy to talk to. I find talking and opening up difficult. It’s not nice to admit your lowest feelings and darkest thoughts. I know everyone always tells you that you … Continue reading No more psychologist = more blogging! →

Blame it on the weatherman

Not written for a while but I had an interesting discussion with my psychologist today. It was about luck/chance of bad things happening and where you place the blame and anger. There is around an estimated 0.05% chance of having a genetic mutation of Long QT. That’s 1 in 2000. Now I don’t know 2000 … Continue reading Blame it on the weatherman →

The Eriksen Effect

The world watched in horror on Saturday 12th June as Christian Eriksen collapsed on the pitch in the 43rd minute of Denmark’s game with Finland. Eriksen suffered a sudden cardiac arrest. He received immediate medical attention including CPR and 1 shock from a defibrillator. It was harrowing to watch. I cried. I don’t know the … Continue reading The Eriksen Effect →

Greenland

I’ve recently watched Greenland. I would recommend it. One thing really hit me though. The little boy talks about the flashes you see before you die. 'Your life flashes in front of your eyes when you die. I think it would be better if it did that while you lived. That way, you could see … Continue reading Greenland →

2020: Review of the year

In history books 2020 will always be the year of ‘The Pandemic’. A year so many lost their lives to this horrific virus. A year we applauded our NHS front line workers every night for a few weeks and then apparently forgot them just as quickly. Condolences to anyone who lost loved ones this year. … Continue reading 2020: Review of the year →

Empathy and understanding

When I was relatively new to the teaching profession I remember someone saying ‘you can’t be a good teacher unless you’re a parent’. While obviously this isn’t true because you can be an amazing teacher still of course; in some ways non-parent teachers technically have a distinct advantage as they should be full of the … Continue reading Empathy and understanding →

Make mine a double

I’m not usually at a loss of how to start writing these. It just usually flows out. However this is the third time I’ve started writing this. I first started when I knew we were going to go down to GOS to trial the change in meds and to meet the Transplant team. I then … Continue reading Make mine a double →

Fake smiles fraught with danger

Isla’s recovering from yet another surgery. The last possible surgery before they consider giving her a heart transplant. However, it’s not just Isla who needs to recover. Hypothetically, Isla is now as safe as she possibly can be. She’s made some fantastic leaps in her development despite missing nursery because of this bastard virus. Yesterday … Continue reading Fake smiles fraught with danger →